where did the last six months go?

Today little L has his six months birthday.  It feels like yesterday I was peeing on that little stick and all of a sudden here we are today with a bouncing (screaming and yelling) laughing hysterically little man (not baby- he has been going on 16 for months now)
What have I learnt?- hmm not sure as I am a sleep deprived walking zombie alot of the time and the rest of the time fulfilling my ADHD potential by working like a madwoman on all my creative dreams that must be done NOW and ALL AT ONCE.
For the first 3 months I was just working at not being a complete insane person through lack of sleep, keeping my boobs from falling off through their lack of breaks and working overtime, getting dressed and brushing my hair at least every second day, all the while thinkning - yes, you're lovely but WHAT HAVE I DONE?
From 3 to about 5 months I started feeling like I had the hang of this mothering gig so in true Monie style decided we could broaden the workload and started a t-shirt design business.  We were hanving playdates, baking cakes, dishes were done, clothes were washed- regular little Betty Homemaker.  Little L was thriving( his hair still growing longer and longer while the underneath wore away around the back from lying on his back until it now looks like he has an undercut), smiling, rolling, pure joy to hang out with really. But somewhere in the last month I have started to wonder have I gotten worse? Isn't the progression supposed to keep getting better.  Somewhere along the line, his bedtime and feeding habits have gotten worse not better.  Perhaps during that cruisy stage when I thought- oh bringing him into my bed for one feed won't hurt, oh letting him stay in here one night so I don't have to get up again won't hurt... until we get to today and he has our bed and we only have the couch for a 'good' nights sleep....
Today, I might make a cake to celebrate little L's six month birthday and remind me of that betty homemaker period... even if it did only last a month.
I hear him waking now- lets see if I can Betty Homemaker once again
Happy six month little L- I love you so much and will try to get better at being your mum again

Things I have been making.....King Louis Kustoms

Things are moving along with the little venture, been making more designs and had our second market last week, and our third one will be next week.  I try to keep things at a reasonable and managable pace but with a five month old it still feels hectic and crazy at times....  but he is adorable and delicious and quite the model....

things they don't tell you about motherhood...tired

Sometimes you get so tired and your eyes get so dry, you feel like you could actually file your nails with them...